Brave

I have been in Az for nearly two weeks now. It has been so great spending time with my family and friends. Tonight I can't help but feel a bit lost. How is it when we are surrounded by so many loved ones and so much to do but we still can feel empty or alone? Maybe it's just me. Tonight has been a bit hard for me. I saw friends whom I love dearly. Had a lot of laughs. Reminisced of good times. I would catch myself not commenting or smiling and I would have to remind myself to enjoy the night and be happy. As I got home to my brothers house I just started to pour my heart out to my sister in law. I was explaining to her things I'm trying to overcome and how I'm on this journey to find balance. To find the will and intuition to live my life. The other day a close friend of mine asked what I do when I feel discouraged. I had just been reading this book to my nephew and in it I read; Inspire is: To breathe life into a persons heart, to make her feel joy to be alive. This gave me chills. I felt like it was meant to be the motto of my life. I told her this hoping it would lift her spirits. When we try and not focus on ourselves and try to be there for someone else, it truly lifts us up. As my sister in law and I were talking she told me I was brave. It meant so much to me that she said that. I don't think she realized it but at the moment her faith in me lifted me up from feeling like the world was closing in. Today especially {& every day} I am grateful for the ones who are close to me in my life who have never given up on me.