I was kind of a Grinch through the holiday season and I can't really say why. I realized it when I was getting a diet coke at the Chevron on Christmas Eve and I complained to the cashier about the "annoying" Christmas music playing on the radio. He looked at me and said: "I don't mind it at all". Needless to say I walked out of there thinking, what is wrong with me! ha Looking back its funny but that night I was truly confused as to why I was missing that Christmas Spirit. I later realized, and even more so now that I had been so concerned about myself. I wasn't too excited for Christmas having recently gone through a break up. In the back of my head everyday I kept dreading my birthday that was coming up just ten days after Christmas. Who knew the big 26 would be so daunting? Wow, that was a lot "I's" if you didn't notice. Good thing I finally did! I am so grateful that the most infinite spirit has finally found me. Or maybe it's because I finally faced the fact that it was time to quit being stubborn and just let myself smile a little.
The most Wonderful part of 2011 was my Grandmother Bessie moving into our home in Elk Ridge. It brings me to tears just thinking about her. She is the most spiritual woman I have ever known. I have been delighted to be able to do her hair for her each week. Although I still get so nervous! She wears in unlike any woman I've ever seen. It's beautiful. She likes it all to be curled up, not down or back. During these special times I get with her each weekend and on week days I get to hear so many stories. I LOVE it!! I feel so much closer to her now. She makes me a stronger person just by living. Some of my most favorite stories she tells are about my Grandpa John. Whom she always refers to as "oh that ol' cowboy"! I have learned so much from her these past months. Life is not always going to be what we expect. We are going to have to make changes and pick ourselves up after we fail. That is the beauty of living!
Looking back at this past year, it seems as though I have taken so many different paths. The most important thing is that I'm so happy with where I am right now. My life is full of love and friendship and for that I couldn't be any happier! Next Sunday I have decided to force myself to go to the singles ward.. ugh! This will be the first time in years. Wish me luck! ;]
To be continued...